Sickness Brings Perspective

I’ve been torn away from the blog and art making since a really bad cold took me out for a while. I was weak, foggy, pained, and very down. I’m so glad that’s all over.

Being away from both the art biz and the art practice were tough and educational.

• I was craving work.

• I was worried and wanting to do all of the things -right now.

• The desire to grow my work and my business loomed.

I thought/learned:

• I want to decide what the path I’m on will look and feel like.

• I get to decide my hours, so I don’t need to run myself ragged.

• I know that I will have to sacrifice some career-y things by favoring my mental health, and I’m so down with that sacrifice.

• There’s so much “Must achieve! Must produce!” capitalist programming alive in me, and I don’t want to let it be my guiding force. I want to begin to let go of limiting beliefs.

• The fruits of my labor will be harvested often. Working a healthy amount = good mental health.vI’m going to work the hours I decide on, and if I don’t finish something, it will have to wait. This means slower growth, and more equanimity. 

• I recognize that I’m in a position of privilege, and I don’t want to take the presence of choice for granted.

• I want to do a projection of what will happen in a month, quarterly, and yearly in order to be honest with myself about slow growth.

  Nothing like a good cold to blow fresh air into the studio!